Reminisce once more <3

Renniee you called i'm so happy~ <3 Catching up was fun, although we should talk more arahsuh? haha xD I cant believe we have the same situation for history class! Falling asleep like wooshhh~~

but i'm glad i dont help freshman xD Poor unni! *hugs* <3 you have to deal with the retarded, short, think they're all that people haha. I never thought that freshman would be like that all around the US haha! XD Freaky huh? Teehees :]

I never knew you sent me a letter TT___TT let's blow up post offices and go and see each other in person! I'm sorry if i call you so much that annoys you nyah xD haha how many missed calls did i give you? Kakaka <3 I wish i got that package from you last year T_T Phooey eh? ATleast we know a letter from here to there has to be written in future tense LOL b/c it takes A YEAR to get there! Wah crazy crud~~

Might go to korea with rennie in the summer (: I hope it's after July 6th T_T; or did i say june? D: I hope i said july! >_< I want to go to AX08 with unnies and umma and poof again~~~ or maybe rennie could come to AX too! ^___^ Nyah nyah.

"Find the hyper , childish group of girls." PFTT So nice unni! XD teehees i love you <3 I'm glad we talked today and you better call back again @___@~ or get online! XD *waits waits* :33 nyah nyah~~ Oh yeah thanks for update on that ___ person XD kekes saranghae yo (:

Emi is happy happy today ^___^

`takashima;yuu

KARENNNNN!

I love youuu
i miss you~~
you finally emailed =D

T_T but you dont ipck up your phone~
pick up one day xD we need to catch up?~
hmm i should get AIM again then XD haha <3
Nyah nyah! *squish* i hope you are doing well XD
reply sooonnnnnnnnnnnn~

`takashima;yuu

T E P P A N means..

STUFFING THE CRAP OUTTA ME X__X

That chef is out to get me T_T Evil evil asian culinary man! >_< absolutely EVERYTHING had butter in it, well probably except the salad, shrimp tempura, soup and steamed rice we got in the begining-- oh yeah and soda haha. Anyways, first he set a happy face on fire (It was a happy face of oil in the hot surface thing xD) and then he started making fried rice =D He made it into a heart later on LOL But then he killed it to mix the seasoning in xD

Ahh what was after that O_O I really can't remember! Too much food X_X I know we had shrimp, lobster, steak, scallops, and fried veggies. The chef gave me the most out of everyone! He was like "You're too skinny! You need to eat more!" and i was like "NOOOOOOO". Everyone laughed at me XD Nii-San felt bad for me XD but then i was like, "This is all to give me a heart attack huh?" so peter was like, "Hey gotta go out to dinner for a reason!" Sooo mean XD

At the end the chef was flinging egg at people XD like... making them trying to catch it? I hid behind my Nii-San xD haha. Left overs = going to jack. I seriously am going to EXPLODEE. Everything hurts. It took me so long to try and go up the stairs! X__X I seriously think my heart is clogging right now xD

However, dinner ended on a funny note xD. David and Cyn made a bet. Since Cyn ate so much, she said she's not going to eat until Thursday and if she wins then David has to get either 3 gfs over 1 month *Something like that* , 2 gfs over 2 months or 1 girlfriend over 3 months. THe multiple gfs must be at the same time and the 1 gf has to be at our school xD Oh yeah and he has to go on a diet xD

Throughout dinner, I think David looked at me a lot. I found that kind of odd. Either that or i'm paranoid. Like before 6th period on friday i was eating an orange slice and he was like "aww i should've taken a pic". I thought, "Stalkerish and weird.." so i said "Eh? what?" So he was like "You looked so cuteee".

Yup. I think i'm paranoid. I wonder if I can go to temple tomorrow.. I want to go to the Jamestown Exhibit 30 min away from here so I can get extra credit for history..shit i have a test monday O_O aiyoo brain is dying~ Maybe i shouldn't have stayed up to watch MKMF live xD haha. Time to go and die X__X

`takashima;yuu

愛してる。。。？

I thought back at something Nii-San pointed out a few weeks ago. Maybe I am trying too hard, well in the case of getting a certain someone's attention...but yeah *sigh*

Today started off quite well, I beat Angela on a Physics Exam for once ^_^ And it was funny because she got her units mixed up-- sorta. She thought the weight was the mass when they are NOT. Mr. Miller (The teacher) was like "Whoever still doesn't konw that weight and mass are NOT the same are embarassments to Physics!" So i was laughing at angela :x. But she was all "I CANT BELIEVE I GOT WORSE THAN YOUU!" Very nice =0= well PFT i beat you >D MUAHAHHAA. And Jason beat me ~__~ Stupid bum xD By 2 pts only though~ My B+ is now an A- ^^; Now to hope that I can keep doing well in this class (:

When I got into History i was quite confident in the quiz we had. I think i got 100%! But yeah after that things kinda went downhill. I embarassed myself in AP Comprehension (Not going into that xD) And then in math i was just hungry >_<; Spanish was annoying because Ralph wouldn't stop annoying mee because he doesnt pay attention ~__~ Amy was always like "Are you okay?" har.

Art was.. art lol. Afterschool I was trying to rush Jason to see if I could catch up with my crush. When I saw him he was alll the way across the quad but he saw me and waved and I waved back. God I fell fast... *sigh* I was talking to Pokey and I've like thought it over soo many times

If I tell him and he rejects me it'll be awkward from then on. But if he feels the same way then yayy. The thing is TIMING. I'm planning to give him a holiday card confessing to him so he has two weeks to think it over and then he can tell me when we come back. However, what if I told him when he's about to leave? (He's a senior and the foreign exchange student =/) What if he liked me too? T_T Then all this timee that I could've been with him would be wasted...but if he doesn't it's okay? Argh so confusing T_T I hate love.

`takashima;yuu

thinking once more.

First off.

Mandy I miss you too <3 dont you worry arahsuh? I"m sorry I wasn't home until now to see you online T_T <3 You'll make it through this all! *hugs* I'm going to always be behind you and dont ever forget that! Life is always going to be hard, but there will be happy once more <3.

Now, well for the past few days I've been thinking a lot about this concept called "love" or maybe it's pure lust. Or maybe i'm just desperate and i've lost my mind. Either wayyyy it's kind of confusing. Here's something to someone who I know would not read this (:...

I know you will never understand,
because even I don't know why
I like you.
But I wonder if anything can happen
it seems almost impossible
but i keep wishing and wishing
as I become happier everytime i see you
and your smile....gosh
it just makes my heart hurt.
because i know you're just cheerful
and you dont just smile for me.

I want to find that one personwho makes ME smile and makes ME happy and accepts me for who i am.

I wonder how long that will take...

`takashima;yuu