A bit better (:

Wow, sorry for flipping out on everyone lately-- you know, that time of the month and stress up the hizzyyy @__@ not fun. I never thought I'd get so whiny and bitchy @__@; so sorry again ^^;

Today was quite fun though (: paid attention in class-- got a 9 on a quiz that got passed back and i have a B in physics now due to a D on a test =/ *sigh*~ But I think I can work it up soon ^^; so yeah *sigh*~ APUSH-- I LOST TRACK OF TIME! Something I never thought would happen ^^; Almost fell asleep in AP Comp but that always happens ^^; Didn't go to fourth because of RENAISSANCE =D

It was quite fun actually ^^; running around and the obstacle course-- oh yeah and realizing that David sounds like a dying cow when he sings. Apparently he kept on changing octaves-- well even if he didn't, i bet you he'd still sound like a dying cow xD I hung out with Lloyd a lot today ahha, I wore his beanie too LOL. David had a stalker moment -_-; When i took the beanie off he had his phone open and pointed at me and was like "aww D:" So i was like , "eh?" and he was like "I wanted to take a picture of you with the beanie on!" Freaky ain't it @__@;

And damnn some people at our school CAN NOT sing! X_X so so sad. Wendy tried to make me go and sing the karaoke but i was like "I DO NOT SING ENGLISH" XD but yeah haha. Peter told David that if he chose "I want it taht way" Peter would've joined him~ darn! haha :] oh well~ I ended up singing to nii-san's PSP in our little gropu XD haha~ I also got a piggy back ride =D hehe, feeling tall is weird! LOL!

AHh Jason made me laugh so much! Him and his weird obstacle course tactics XD The blow up obstacle course was hilarious, Jason kept on trying to jump over certain parts and failing xD and his complaint of "no entertianment" because of "no grabbing of legs" backfired when Joy pulled him down on the climbing part xD It was really fun (: I haven't laughed that hard in a while ^__^

Also helped recycle some bottles for Krit and Ike =D Hehe, i'm a good samaritan! ^^; Then agian he called me Julia again =0= stupid krit! *shakes fist* :x

Slacked in spanish, slacked in art

camwhored b/c of 2nd yr anni at TVfXQForever ^^; happy birthday to Junsu oppa also (: althoughistilllikeyesungmorethanjunsu :D

now at home with facemask on =0= breaking out TwT and stupid guy I dont like *mom's friend* came and was like "what happened to your face" and i was like wtf D< imma kill you. so yup =/ oh yeha mind you he's like 30? iono ~__~

well :] that's it for today =D night

`takashima;yuu

medication?

Sickness comes and goes, but not really for me.

If I really think about it, and I did. I've been sick for quite a while. My throat never seems to clear up. I've come to another theory out of my other odd theories:

It is said that happiness contributes to good health, and if I'm sick that means that some part of me is not happy. But, that can mean other things-- not just sadness but also depression and a multitude of other emotions that are "not happy". One contribution would probably be school and stress, but that's an obvious factor isn't it?

Singing once again-- and I've been smiling a lot (Yah you person, you know who you are! I told you I'd smile.) but as I smile, most of the time it is just...meaningless. I know i'm not completely content-- but I guess it's the fact that I have something to show off? No braces ~ that's something i'm happy about, but there are some things that dull it down...

"Laughter is the best medicine" oh ho ho~ It is not when you have a stomach ache or cramps-- which is what i've been dealing with all day @___@; so yup. That was my day, basically dying from the worst cramps ever all day through school. I even went to the nurses office! Oh yeah my teacher doesnt even know my name! T_T he put "sara" on my pass >__> nice huh? *sigh* stupid Mr.Callahan. I better study for his test though @___@;.

Nurse is stupid. I went in, and she was like "Okay just take a seat in there." so I sat there, then she was like "Okay it's almost time for class to be over I have to send you all back" I was seriously like wtf, i'm gagging nonstop and my stomach wont stop hurting! So she's like "take a mint it'll calm down your stomach." Pft. A mint doesnt cure everything stupid woman @__@

I hate my school (:

And i've gone a week without seeing Krit-- other people have seen him. Maybe it's a sign. Bumped into that weird guy who hit on me a couple of times this week, nothing happened, so just as I thought-- I'm being toyed with. What's the point of looking nice anymore @__@; Oh well whatever.

Oh yeah if so many poeple think i'm pretty/uhljjang I can prove you wrong. Why? I HAVE NO BOYFRIEND. And that's my proof (:

`takashima;yuu

...

How do you know that you love someone?

It's when you can sacrifice your own feelings to let them be happy and accept their choices.

That's what love is, even though it hurts.

Atleast, in my world.

`takashima;yuu

In depth ish?

I'll go into my day .. in depth today . because I feel like it? ha.

Morning-- wake up, shower, get ready~ Talked to shelly this morning haha-- saw the Together PV, seriously very very weird yet cute yet..funny. I dont know O_O Animated dong bang? I was cracking up at 6:30AM. Man i am weird. Left to school and it was pretty okay actually ... until ehh later =0=;;

Breakfast serving, goes normal as always. I felt really up-ish today? I dont know why but I felt like it'd be a good day. I stayed awake from 1st to 3rd! I understood physics and paid attention, I think i did good on my quiz for history and I stayed awake and attent in AP Composition! I participated too! Aren't you proud of me? Haha-- kinda got worse after that.

Fourth period I couldn't stay awake, Calc BC is way too hard and i'm just slipping like mad in that class! It's just lkdajfioewaj. Stupid teacher cant teach-- so i fell asleep while taking notes so yeah =/ left early to go to "work". Ended up taking work off to do club yearbook pictures. I fucking hate the yearbook.

Nii-San is Pres and he got a slip yesterday saying that our pictures would be taken today at lunch. So we got all of our club and went down there to find out that they didn't make a sign for our club. I'm like wtf, you fucking organized this shit, you sent out the slips that scheduled the pictures and you should've had it done. So they were like, "we dont have a sign, can you come tomorrow?" I just got really pissed off and glared at the stupid ass white chick and iw as like, "well you know what? I took work off for this so i cant skip tomorrow too. Just fucking take it".

They ended up doing that and are going to "photoshop" our club name on the green paper thing. They beter do a good job or i'm going to fucking stab them or something. Nii san was like "are you going to get a yearbook?" I really dont want to-- b/c they're stupid white people organizing it and they cant get anything right. Unorganized stupid ass bastards. Seriously -_-;

Spanish test-- getting por and para mixed up but i think that's it. It was quite easy and I think i did pretty well-- Art, forgot to bring in a product so i borrowed pam's makeup bag and pulled out a mini hair wax to draw. Spent all of period drawing a contour version of it or something. Gotta finish it tomorrow and what not. Also i have to stay afterschool tomorrow and make up an essay for AP Comp. *Sigh*~

Went to ACI Institute afterwards for like an hour or mor ediscussing SAT shit and plans to study and take courses. Need to bring up my 1760 and crap. My dad has been nagging me lately and i really really don't need any of it. It's breaking me down a lot and I feel really distant from people lately.

In AP Comp there was this cute poem we read, let me type it out~

Life is short. Enjoy it!
Dust if you must; but wouldn't it be better
To paint a picture, write a letter,
Bake a cake or plant a seed,
Ponder the difference between want and need?
Dust if you must, but there's not much time,
With rivers to swim and mountains to climb,
music to hear and books to read,
Friends to cheris and life to lead.
Dust if you must, but the world's out there
With the sun in your eyes, the wind in your hair,
A flutter of snow, a shower of rain.
This day will not come around again.
Dust if you must, but bear in mind,
Old age will come and it's not kind.
And when you go, and go you must,
You, yourself will make more dust!
--Anonymous

Cute huh? I like it. What else to say hm? Well i haven't seen Krit so far this week so I dont know what is going on, but whatever. I think i give up on the chase because i think i annoy him. Sadly, i tend to do that to a lot of guys~ *sigh* I need to study my ass off for finals, do homework, study for SATs, learn sarang surowo, get a haircut and all this crap. I Guess the only good thing right now? I got my braces off. :]



Bye :]

`takashima;yuu