Okay. Now starting the "distance phase" of my life. Yes I am going to be distant from almost everyone. There are a few where I will still talk to. I'm not listing who, you will see. It's just that I am in the mood to push people away from me. Yes, I AM IN THE MOOD TO DO THAT. Why?
My trust has worn weak.
My temper is even shorter.
My tolerance is almost no existent.
And bipolar rate is up the hizzouse.
Yes, that's right. I said it's up the hizzouse.
I can't trust anyone. I'm stuck with stupid shit. I don't know how things will go even though I try and try so hard. I try my best and nothing comes out right. I guess I'm not meant to succeed, or be happy in that case. There's always those countless back lashes that are never, ever worth it. The more I think about it, the more mistakes I find in my life.
Sure, I am thankful for many things, but I feel so stupid for so many others. Countless others. So many regrets, so many retarded mistakes and choices. I guess that's what life was going to be for me. No one understands-- except maybe Umma. Other than that, maybe other people.
It's like-- if you want to be close to me, it's almost too late to be. What you knew of me, is nothing of me now. Don't try to get close unless you were already close before hand. Don't bother unless you know it's ALRIGHT with me. Don't be surprised if i turn to a bitch to you. Just mind your own business, which means butting out of mine.
What pisses me off lately is school. Yes, school. Full of stupid ass rumors and stupid ass boys. I hate boys. I cant trust any [except maybe nii-san]. The rest are like two faced, no matter what. Really, It's stupid. I'm wasting my time on hopeless romantic shit, why do I even try. The stereotype is true, the majority of guys just want to get into your pants. Well fuck off. I'll say what I told some other perve who is my friend only so he could "get with me" and "get closer". I'm going to fucking shove your nose onto the pavement and scrape it until there is no cartilage existent on your damn face.
yeah, that's my rant. Kk bye.
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- 원쥴리.
- Julie Emerald Nguyen aka Emi (:. Class of 2009. I'm bipolar, I ramble, I am an average 16 year old girl, sort of. I take life as it comes and try my best most of the time. I get knocked down, and even though it takes me a while, I'll get back up sooner or later. Life is a rollercoaster with its ups and downs and I'm stuck on the ride until I die.