And you may be asking what I'm doing up at 5:30AM blogging. It's been almost a month since I updated, have you guys missed me? I hadn't updated because, well, nothing major has happened-- nothing interesting or anything like that. And now, since I really can't sleep (and in truth, I've actually been up since around 4AM with my eyes closed but my mind still working in bed ; so I gave up and got up and took a shower.)You may ask why? Simple, Emi's basically..heartbroken. And this time, she didn't even do anything wrong to really deserve this, but love too much. I'm foolish, arent I? The tears just wouldn't stop last night, although I know he's not worth crying over, I couldnt help it. I got pep talks from everyone, analyzing and re analyzing everything..and well right now I feel that I should do my homework, so I will come back when I can (soon, maybe this afternoon or night) to fill you all in on this messed up love life that I have.
I'll leave you with this, do you guys know this song?~ It's like..how I feel ha
아프다고 말하면 정말 아플 것 같아서
슬프다고 말하면 눈물이 날 것 같아서
그냥 웃지 그냥 웃지 그냥 웃지
그런데 사람들이 왜 우냐고 물어
rap
매일을 울다가 웃다가 울다가 웃는걸 반복해
나 왜 이러는데
술이 술인지 밥인지도 모르는 채
살아 이 정도 아픔은 통과 의례인 듯 해
멍하니 종이에 나도 몰래 니 이름만 적어 하루 왼 종일
종이가 시커매지고서야 펜을 놔
너 그리워 또 핸드폰을 들었다 놔
눈물이 또 찾아와 너와의 이별이란
나는 심장이 없어 나는 심장이 없어
그래서 아픈 걸 느낄리 없어
매일 혼잣말을 해 내게 주문을 걸어
그래도 자꾸 눈물이 나는 걸
아프다고 말하면 정말 아플 것 같아서
슬프다고 말하면 눈물이 날 것 같아서
그냥 웃지 그냥 웃지 그냥 웃지
그런데 사람들이 왜 우냐고 물어 이렇게 웃는데
rap
니가 떠나고부터 난 바보가 된 것 같어
i can't do 아무것도 죽어라 방구석에 박혀 살어
너 없인 할 일도 없는데 하룬 길어 너무 길어
근데 뭐 그리 바뻐 널 외롭게 했어
니가 쇼핑 가자 그럴 때 친구와 술 한잔 마시는 건 그렇게
쉬운데 왜 너한테 못했을까
언제나 제일 느린 게 후회랬는데
정말 바본지 끝까지 너와의 끈을 놓지 못해
나는 심장이 없어 나는 심장이 없어
오늘도 뻔한 거짓말을 해
가슴이 넘 아픈데 이렇게 보채는데
어떻게 웃을 수가 있겠어
아프다고 말하면 정말 아플 것 같아서
슬프다고 말하면 눈물이 날 것 같아서
그냥 웃지 그냥 웃지 그냥 웃지
그런데 사람들이 왜 우냐고 물어 이렇게 웃는데
(웃자) tv속 연예인들 처럼
(웃자) 너의 미니홈피 제목처럼
(웃자) 행복했던 내 어제처럼
나는 심장이 없어 아플수가 난 없어
나는 심장이 없어 아플수가 난 없어
그냥 웃자 그냥 웃자 그냥 웃자
제발 좀 눈물아 이제는 멈춰줘
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Without A Heart - 8eight
Translated by 1.minute.1.second
If I say that I'm in pain, I'm scared that I'll really be in pain
If I say that I'm sad, I'm scared that I will shed my tears
Why don't I just laugh, just laugh, just laugh...
But people ask me why I'm crying...
Everyday I cry, I smile, cry then smile again
What's wrong with me, why do I do this repeatedly?
Can't differentiate between bottles of alcohol and meals
So far in my life, I never felt pain this excruciating
Absentmindedly, I write your name over and over on a piece of paper
In a day, the paper becomes black and I finally let the pen go
I long for you, I hold on to my cellphone and let it go
my eyes are filling up with tears again, this separation between us..
I'm without a heart, I don't have a heart
So I wouldn't be feeling pain
Everyday I talk to myself, and put myself under a spell
But even so, I keep shedding my tears
If I say that I'm in pain, I'm scared that I'll really be in pain
If I say that I'm sad, I'm scared that I will shed my tears
Why don't I just laugh, just laugh, just laugh...
But people ask me why I'm crying,
when I'm laughing like this...
After you left, I think I became a fool
I can't do, I can't do anything, so I die.
I shove myself into a corner and live
Without you there's nothing left to do
A day is too long, way too long
But what was I busy with, to make you feel so lonely,
when you wanted to go shopping, going out with my friends
was so easy, but why couldn't I do the same to you?
I always regretted being so slow,
I don't know if I'm really stupid, but I still can't let go of our bond.
I'm without a heart, I don't have a heart
Again today, I can see through your lies
My heart is in so much pain, I'm begging for your help
How can I smile in times like this?
If I say that I'm in pain, I'm scared that I'll really be in pain
If I say that I'm sad, I'm scared that I will shed my tears
Why don't I just laugh, just laugh, just laugh...
But people ask me why I'm crying,
when I'm laughing like this...
(let's smile) like couples in dramas
(let's smile) like the title of your blog
(let's smile) happy like in my past
I'm without a heart, I can't be in pain
I'm without a heart, I can't be in pain
Let's just laugh, just laugh, just laugh
Please, please let's stop crying now...
