[F A M I L Y] and by this, it means immediately related, blood connected, kin kind of family. A lot has happened this year with my family, I guess. I've had a lot of mixed feelings about my family members and such, but I still, deep inside, am very very grateful for them. In 2008, my dad was diagnosed with rectal cancer, my brother is still very unreliable, and my cousin and aunt from Vietnam now live with us. It's a year of many mixed emotions, I can tell you that. With my father having cancer, at first he was very passive-- and even said "I should just die, it's not worth the trouble", but after, I think about 7-8 months or so, he's doing a lot better and I realize how big of an importance he is to me. I really love my dad, and I want to do my best for him.
My mom, on the other hand, because of my dad's condition began to baby my dad, and in doing so-- annoyed me. My mom and I have an okay relationship, at times it's really bad, at times it's really good. So eh, a bit of a change there since I used to be very (somewhat) close (in a sense) to my mom, but now I'm more towards my dad.
My brother is kind of still retarded. He still is selfish sometimes, and then says not to be like him (although at times I am when I go out :/) and says I should stay back and take care of dad because he wants to go out. I was like, the heck? So yeah, our rleatoinship is mixed too :/ but he's just stupid. But one thing I really dislike, is he chooses his girlfriend over his family, almost all the time *sigh* -0-.
My cousin and aunt are pretty good, although they dont ask for much -- or really dont ask at all, and just take things sometimes. It's annoying but I dont blame them because they're not sure if I could understand (My vietnamese isn't THAT bad >W<) but yeah. 2008 made a lot of changes to my family and home life. Hopefully things get better now, since my dad is in better health than before-- I'm already happy for that.
F R I E N D S. This year, I learned how I am with people, and how other people are with me. I realized that almost everyone is two faced except the few people I really do trust. I learned how I'm hard to reason with when it comes to forgiveness, and often I hold things in to those I dont trust and still smile on the outside. Friends to me, are those who I can trust-- those who will accept me no matter what. Those who don't talk behind my back, and would rather address my problems to me.
Like Kurisuti Umma, I learned, in 2008, who my friends really are. I don't have to list them, becuase they know already-- and I'm very thankful for them, for staying with me (no matter how much of a crazy bitch I can become) and for never straying. Although there were periods of miscommuncation, or no communcation at all, I'm glad I was able to keep in touch and "fix" things-- more like "remend", because nothing will ever be like before-- but we can always try to make it even better. This also goes for the new year. I'm being more cautious about my actions with others and I'm looking more into who they are before calling them my friend. And also, those who are my friends now-- you're always my friends guys <3 Thank you so much.
However, those who through around random accusations out of nowhere, and point the blame at others for something-- please stay away from me, because I'd rather not deal with any drama now that the new year is starting. Let it go, and move on.
R E L A T I O N S H I P S Oh boy oh boy, by looking back on this aspect of 2008, I see how stupid I really am, how mistaken I was for so many things. I've learned from this-- thank goodness, and also learned more about myself and how vulnerable I really am. Because of this, I know that in the new year, I'm going to have to strive to be a bit more independent, and that I need to find my true ambition. However, there were times where things were worth it. I gained a few friends who I really do trust from this-- and I was able to see more about people and myself. Right now, I'm actually done looking. I'm simply going to wait until the time is right and when it is, then it'll be so. I can smile for some other reason-- no need for a boy. Like..I'll smile because my dad is in good health, and because Kurisuti Umma, Kei Nii San, Sachuu Chan and many others exist and care for me.
C H A N G E S ; 2009 is the year I graduate, and boy am I ready to do so. Once this happens, and if I get into the university I wish to go into (So far, I've gotten into UC Riverside, Cal State Fullerton, and San Diego State ; but I don't want to go to any of those >W< haha. They were my backups :x) then it's really time to put all those childish memories and stupid "mistakes" (More like experiences that I've learned from-- never regret anything. Learn from it) and to start new and fresh, for real. I'm ready to get my life set, although I'm only 16-- I wish to set a path for myself. My major is biochemistry, and I really wish to have a career in the medical field to help others (Mainly with my experience with my father, I really care about others-- and I hate to see suffering...)I'll be 17 when I enter college, and hopefully with a license hah (I had my first taste of driving yesterday-- it was a blast!)
In 2008, I realize I've become a lot more conscious about how I look. I'm not sure why, but I just do. I constantly shop nowadays (Which I should stop, sadly i've spent MORE this year! >W<) just to be more 'stylish'. But it's whatever I feel fits, never to look like someone-- it's what I like myself. Call me whatever you like, because I seem to get called a poser a lot. But I'm Emi-- or Julie, whoever you know me as. And really, I dress how I want so deal with it and don't call me anything if you know what's better for you-- I just know you're jealous. Ha ha! Just kidding..sorta. Hahaha
As said before, I'm a bit more aware of people and trust. I have trust issues now, and really-- my trust will now be hard to gain. People I meet will be acquaintances until I really can trust them and I know that they wont tell anyone.
How about MEMORIES
-First and foremost, RIP Victor Liu Wang 031508 ; I miss you.
-END OF 2007 BUT CLOSE ENOUGH ; 1st time at CUE with Kei, Kuri and Emily
-First time making truffles & continuously making them for others <3
-JYP Auditions with Sachuu and Kei ; Met up with Kuri after <3
'-Hanging around GG with Kurisuti Umma (Kuri: I"ll bring her back asap! ; Dad: Make it a half an hour more~~ goo~~ have fun~)
-Hollywood Bowl 2008; Hanging with Kuri Umma
-Anime Expo 2008 ; Met LM.C, Kuro and Riku / Hanging with Hika
-Hika & Warren's visit to LA in the summer
-Applied to colleges
-Had various breakdowns, but am okay now ; I need to stop thinking
-Visit to Cutie Fashion with Umma <3
-Late night chats with people <3 Mainly Umma XD
-Prom 2008 with Kei Nii San
-Early Birthday bash at Angela's w/ Tammy.
-Becoming a Purikura and Genki Living addict
-Angela's many many quotes <3 I love my best friend haha
-Summertime Volunteering at the Library
-Seeing Tony again on his summer break from Babson
-NEWSPAPER BOAT RACE FOR ENGINEERING PHYSICS! FAIL!~
-Walking around the mall in Loli clothing for Sami's birthday
If I remember more, I sure will post!
2008 is pretty memorable..wow~
